"Me" Time

While this summer is flying by at lightening speed, my job search has not taken a back seat. When I'm not working or helping people get married, my computer is permanently attached to my lap and I am searching every website known to mankind for any job that I might be remotely qualified for and not totally hate. To date, I have applied for approximately 30 jobs in about 7 different states and I have received 2 interviews, both of which I have been rejected from. That's enough for a girl to lose some confidence. I feel stuck.

It's getting down to crunch time and, pretty soon, I have to start making some decisions about what my next move will be. I have to be out of my apartment in about two weeks, and I have no idea what to do. There are still a few jobs I am waiting to hear back about, but I have a feeling that those applications went into a black hole in cyberspace never to be seen or heard about again.

Recently, a friend who is in the same boat as I am and I have started looking at apartments in town where, at least, we both have part-time jobs and can substitute teach and find other sources of income. I know this isn't really what I want, but, at this point, I feel that I have no choice. I have to work and I have to live somewhere, and this seems to be the most logical solution.

What I really want to do is go. Anywhere. Have an adventure. Find somewhere/something/someone that will offer me a unique opportunity. Ideally, that place would be Seattle where I know a few people but still have plenty of room to grow, but, as it turns out, it costs money to just pick up and leave and that's the one thing that's stopping me. I want to have some "Me" time. I want to find new passions, try new things, lose this extra poundage that has taken up residence on my body since the stress of student teaching made it impossible to work out and my mind too exhausted to think about eating right. I want to find the almost-24 year old girl who should be having the time of her life. I have spent the summer watching people grow and change and add exciting things to their lives. Now, I want it to be my turn.